Do You?
Tuesday, July 28, 2009 @ 2:54 AM
there is so much I wish to tell you
but have no idea where I should start from
there is so much I wish to tell you
but I just don't know how to put it in words
there is so much I wish to tell you
but in the end, I kept everything to myself.
I miss you badly
but I find it hard to tell you.
I need you badly
but will you be there and listen to me?
I love you
but, do you?
everyting is jus so sux
@ 2:36 AM
ky is back to sg on 28 March 2009. =)
i went to the airport wit ky's mum and his 2nd brother, guo chin, and also lao da, guo long to fetch kok yong.
been lots of ups and downs. until now. relationship, working life and studies arent goin well for mi.
-Work-
i went over to jeffrey side. mobile side. selling palm and acer pda. i find the job very slack. until recently. working wit eric makes mi feel that.. i'm such a dummy. i knew nth bout the pda world yet i keep acting as if i knew every single things bout pda. no wonder no pple wanna work wit mi. slacker who always report work late n didnt do ani research and do nth at work. damn slacker. cant blame anione beside mi. i could onli blame myself for being so dumbass.
and... i wasnt tat close wit aaron n pei shan le. i hate aaron!! he's a bastard. but mi arent getting ani better.
-Relationship-
keep having cold wars between the 2 of us. from march until now, July, there's already 2 break-and-patch stuff already. now gonna be another third time. but is it gonna be the last chance between us? i have no idea. i felt so unstable wit him.. i dun mean my emotional unstable altot i guess i gonna break down soon.. it is jus the unstable in.. jobs. been months he had already ORD but yet... he still workin part time. n insist workin at kinokuniya bookshop wit his friends. i dun mind.. but the job realli dun suit him.. and it is a short term job. tis isnt a long term job he should look for. n i rather he go spend 2 yrs in his stuides.. rather den to work for 2 yrs n go back to study. he still duno wat he realli wants. i have been in tis stage before. even until now.. but at least.. i know tat if i'm jobless.. i will still look for a full time job while workin for a part time job.. it seem to him tat.. the whole world onli left Orchard Kinokuniya Bookshop is hiring. and as if the shop will 100% hire him. omg. n i realli hates it when he quarrel wit mi for unreasonable tings. n c'mon... u knew i'm a smoker.. forcing mi to quit i could understand. cos i knew that.. u jus want mi to save up the money n oso for the sake of my health.. but.. tat night YOU are jus OVER REACTING!!!
-School-
having a holiday from may to 21 sept 2009. until now, i still haven touch my professional project. OMG~ lucky tis 3 weeks roadshow got lawrence to stand in. and i got lots of off days. mayb i shall jus skip my coffee kaki part time n spent time on my tis assignment before school reopen. i must realli pull up my socks for my studies. have to read more newspaper and storybook.
I'm jus damn sux lah.. dumbass Kin. everything also don't know yet don't wanna ask pple for help and still act smart. no wonder pple hates her (KIN).....
..Unwanted..
