..life..
Sunday, February 20, 2005 @ 10:42 AM
-=20 Feb 2005=-
later mi goin off to bishan dome to work le..duno sam they all noe le will angry or not..cos i leave bites den go dome bishan..haiz..hope they understand ba..well..ytd xinyi [ my cousin ] birthday..also got chingay..haiz..regretted..if onli i tat time be strong continue go for practice den last nite mi at there sure beri fun liao..since it hab past let it past le ba..last nite jinwei put qian de plane den she no mood to go watch midnite movie le..so cancel didnt go liao..so i went to hab supper wit my cousin n her family lorz..didnt enjoy it..cos she slap her daughter..den she keep cryin..haiz..everyone is lookin..
kinda regret askin alan to let mi go outlet work..cos dono y now i really hate to work alot lorz..haiz..but i now really no money already..i also don wish to take from my mother..she also no money le..haiz..earn e money pay house installment n stall no money to pay le..can onli afford to pay one side..life is kinda hard for us now..mi now in sch also not beri happy..i may have friends there..but i really dun feel like goin animore..maybe i jus feelin too stress lorz..den as for cca...mum dun wan mi to go tkw but she let mi go la..but i also kinda dun feel like goin cos i felt kinda useless..i duno i should join basketball team or not..reason?cos i'm too afraid to go..i'm so lousy in it..i'm jus afraid of it..
somehow..if i can..i wish i can forget everything..cos..its hurts mi lots..people should look forward n keep on walkin..but..i tried lookin forward n not e past n tryin walkin to-wards..but..the path is jus too hard for mi..wwhenever i try to look n walk toward..the past keep pop out in my mind..i'm scare..i'm scare all tis will repeat..cos it once repeated to mi..
*dun leave mi behind..i'm scare..
