happy? sad?
Thursday, November 04, 2004 @ 4:43 PM
still kinda feelin down lorz.. den dear promise mi tat he will pei wo go out after monday.. cos of his exam... friday got chalet.. my sis n her hubby de.. celebrate their weddin or wat de.. den i jio qian, anna, fang and dear go.. den at there stay overnite lorz.. sian.. today ..... [ onli qian noe.. i cannot rite out hu ] she sae ting kinda make mi upset lorz... over dear.. wat the use lorz.. as if dear is her stead.. kns.. even if wei jiunn hurt mi oso not her problems lorz.. mi no longer a kid le.. noe how to protect myself.. although i may be silly n stupid at times.. i still onli a little bit of protection for myself de lorz.. i noe if some thing happen i may regret... but oso don hab to make things so difficult for mi lorz.. n oso there is no such need to take my ex stead to compare wit him lorz.. cos wei jiunn is wei jiunn lorz... ex stead is ex stead lorz.. there might be some misunderstandin between dear n my gan mei, da jie n cousin lorz.. but i will try my best to let them to accept him de.. no matter wat lorz.. cos i don wish they hab any misunderstand between them lorz.. den today i called to quit my job.. i cannot make it lorz.. cos tat job isnt suit for mi.. i jus damn scare of goin there to work lorz.. dono y.. den last nite until now keep smokin.. but got control lorz.. cos today smoke too much le.. although onli 5 sticks... but cannot lorz... cos qian n dear wont be happy.. some more.. they onli allow mi to smoke one pack [ 20 sticks ] cos they noe mi beri stress n feelin low lorz.. den if tis pack finish le i cannot buy lorz.. if not they sure not happy wit mi liao ma.. but to say e real thing.. one pack isnt enough for mi lorz.. jobless for a month le.. onli left $10. onli.. den i jus now go eat dinner wit qian still got $10. from mother.. haiz... den now must look for job again le... no money to pay handphone bill liao.. run out of cash also.. ATM also no money liao..
